A New Heart

I now know what it's like to be told your heart is no good and you need a new one. This happened to me this week. I truely felt that my heart was beating well, I felt good, I was alive....but I was told otherwise that it wasn't good. That had to be one of the biggest blows

to me. I felt stripped and shredded of all and who I am. I sought the Lord with questions as to why! WHY! W H Y ! What did I do to deserve this. I thought my heart was good. I truely did things out of love, and wanting to serve.

I guess any cancer patient would ask the same of thier body. In my case it was a spiritual heart, and I was told how to fix it and given time for recovery. Thinking about it...cancer patients don't always get that. Im worn out right now...emotionally I am a nervous wreck. I cry so easily. I even wonder if I need medical help. Again my thoughts go back to a cancer patient...if it's a severe case they dont get much of a chance....even if they do get a fight, the emotions of the intial diagnosis has to have them worn and stripped down, as I felt!

Lord, I come to you empty....but given another chance! Lord, I feel the presence of evil hovering over and wanting to snatch me. Please protect me....please confirm in me the many blessings you want for me and my family. I've reached a bottom....but I know you have thrown that rope down and have desended down into my hole with me and will drag and pull me out....because I am too weal to do so myself! My heart is small now and new...help me to fill it up with your love and your words of life....this is my desire!